It’s been about a week since I’ve last posted, and though I normally have really enjoyed doing this for myself, I have been feeling like there’s not much to say that falls under the category of good news. All along, I’ve liked to write because I like keeping track of this whole journey I’m going through. That said, that usually only happens when I feel that the journey will swing into a positive place!
And right now, it’s not. So I took a hiatus. On Monday, I got my blood taken. I crossed my fingers for a TSH level under 8.41, and I still haven’t gotten the results back. It should be here very soon. Unfortunately, though, I have a bad feeling about it. I’ve had lots of hives lately, back to my legs and arms, which hasn’t shown up there in months. I’ve been taking more antihistamines than I have in a while, as well. I had to take a week off of that low-carb, low-sugar diet last week as I visited my grandparents and then hiked Mount Washington, which required granola and dried fruit and other things I wouldn’t normally eat. So I chalked up my hives to that. However, I’ve been back on the diet this week, and with the hives continuing, I’m struggling to find the motivation to continue. I’m still making good choices, but without the previous feelings of security about it. How do I know this is even going to matter in the process of lowering my TSH? What if I could be eating endless amounts of pasta, potatoes, ice cream….but that still wouldn’t be healthy. No matter what, I suppose this is good for me, as it would be for anyone. But I’m getting kind of sick of salads and nuts. Bleh. I caved and added a banana to my protein shake the other day – delicious. I officially can’t get rid of bananas, no matter that they’re filled with sugar and carbs. They’re here to stay!
Completed my last cycle and am starting a new one, number 4 to be exact. We will see if a pattern shows up compared to the last one. Maybe by the end of the next cycle…..I’ll have a low(er) TSH level! Eventually, my body will do what it’s supposed to do at this age, right?