Secrets no more!

Well, I’ve finally done it. I’ve told the rest of the members of my family (and my in-laws) that I’m struggling with conceiving a child and therefore am getting medical assistance. There. I said it.

Most of my close family already knew – but there were a couple people I was holding out on. I was hoping my husband could jump in and help, because I have seemed to be tongue-tied for the last seven months, but he was definitely less assertive than I was. So that wasn’t going to work.

Finally, the other night, I just couldn’t take it anymore. I hate this idea of carrying a personal secret that someone close to me, whom I trust, would want to know, and would be supportive about. Why keep it in? I didn’t give specifics, just that medication would be involved and I’d be starting in a few weeks.

Ever since then – I feel so much better. I have nothing to hide! Seriously! It’s out (not on Facebook….but out), and I just feel such relief. On Christmas, if the question comes up, I’m ready to deal with it. I’ve got my speech prepared.

Telling people about this was seriously the best thing I ever did, because I feel better.

Now, on to Clomid!! Three more Provera pills and I’ll hopefully get AF two days after that, like I did last time. That would put me right at Christmas – with the office closed. Oh well. As long as I’m calling on Monday and starting Clomid shortly after that, I’ll be happy. I’ll keep you updated!


2 thoughts on “Secrets no more!

  1. thechocolatecupcake says:

    Glad you’re able to share your struggle with family. In my case, my husband is more comfortable discussing it with his family but I’m a very private person by nature. So sharing with people I know is tough. My parents who DO KNOW have been rather insensitive – I’m a little gun-shy about sharing more. So blogging’s been helping me express what I can’t typically say in real life.

  2. thefamilyvan says:

    Thanks for this post! This is an issue I’ve been struggling with, as well. Some members of my family know, but my husband’s family doesn’t. I was feeling some pretty major anxiety around Christmas and how I would react if the topic came up.
    It’s so nice to read that other people are thinking about all of this stuff, too :).
    Best of luck!

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