I wanted to let everyone know that the ET happened, hopefully successfully. I was concerned we were going to have to fight the doctor to put two embryos in, as I make lots of eggs and I’m young. But – and not sure if this is a good thing – he actually recommended two when we got there. It appeared that our two best embryos were in the “early blastocyst” stage…and so he wanted two. Which of course we were fine with…but…you know, I’m a little worried. Not panicking, but after comparing my embryo pics to those on websites showing the stages of a blastocyst, mine appear not even a letter grade yet. And I don’t know much about blastocysts, but I’m pretty sure those embies weren’t cooked yet. Or maybe over-cooked for a day 5 transfer.
I guess what it comes down to is, I’ve been on modified bed rest since yesterday afternoon and I’m going a bit stir-crazy. Nothing to do but sit and take my dr’s recommendation to put in 2 as a bad thing. I wanted the perfect scenario. But how naive, because nothing in this process has been perfect. Far from it.
When I started my fertility treatments, never in a million years did I think it would go on this long. I just knew Clomid would be my saving grace, as it has worked for so many people. Six rounds of Clomid later, three with ovulation, and my pride and strength took a hit. Three IUI’s later, the last with Follistim, and I was truly surprised, and ready for IVF. IVF #1 was cancelled a few days before retrieval. IVF #2 got me a retrieval, a two-embryo early blastocyst transfer on day 5, and here I am in possibly the most torturous TWW yet. We don’t even know if there are any to freeze yet. The rest of the 15 yesterday were even farther behind than the two they put in, and I didn’t get a call today. My diagnosis is “anovulation” aka who knows, but if this doesn’t work and nothing else has come even close, I find myself wondering if there’s more to the story, which is concerning.
It’s just not a good time to be laying down non-stop right now, as my house is under major construction and I’m not helping my husband with any of it. I picked up my 25-pound dog by accident today (forgot) and hope I didn’t pull something and bump those traveling embryos. This “do-nothing” thing sucks. I’ve been super crampy most of the day and starting the symptom search seems like a bad idea. If implantation doesn’t occur for a few more days, why is the bed-rest no longer in effect after tomorrow?
I guess there’s just a lot to worry about. I hate that TWW.