32 weeks and in the hospital….

…until the babies are born. Here’s the short version because I don’t have the energy to go into all the details.

Went to l and d on Saturday night at 11:00pm. Was having increasing contractions, couldn’t get comfortable and something just didn’t feel right. Still couldn’t make the decision though and felt bad it was that late.

By the time I was looked at, contractions were 2-3 mins apart and painful, I was 80% effaced and 4-5 cm dilated. Three weeks prior when I was there I was 60-70% effaced and 2-3 cm dilated.

Anyway, they did not want to give me Procardia to stop contractions. It was down to more mag sulfate (probably 24 hrs) or the terb shot. Terb… Something. They decided on the shot. It worked. Practically stopped contractions. They were debating sending me home even though it was 3:00 in the morning. Doctor decided she wanted me to stay.

In the morning, everything changed. All of a sudden I was 100% effaced, 6 cm dilated, etc. Everyone was preparing for labor. Contractions got really painful, more than they ever had been. We prepared for labor too, mentally.

I got the epidural, which was the plan all along in case baby b needed to be a c section. Ahh, epidurals really help. A catheter was also put in.

We all waited for dilation to increase and to be sent to the OR. I told many people we would have babies by the end of the day. We waited, and waited….and waited.

Labor stopped. Went back to 4 cm dilated, contractions spaced out and the ones I did have weren’t changing my cervix. They left everything as is one more night (epidural and catheter) and would decide yesterday, Tuesday what to do.

Now it’s Wednesday afternoon. They took the epidural and catheter out, moved me to regular maternity, and I’m back to bed rest – except in the hospital this time. I have bathroom and shower privileges and that’s it. I’m actually glad to be here this time. Their prediction is that this will be soon and I’d rather already be here.

But you’d think I’m just hanging out in bed relaxing, watching tv. Ohhh no. No, after the epidural wore off I had a pain in my legs and especially hips that’s only gotten way, way worse. I can’t walk without help and even then it’s a shuffle, I can’t turn over in bed, I can’t get up or sit on my own. It’s up there on the list of the worst pains I’ve ever felt. The doctor think it’s bursitis of the hips, and I’m currently waiting for an orthopedist to come check me out. Until then, I forget all about giving birth soon because this hip pain is unreal.

I’ve decided, very selfishly, that if the babies came now at 32 weeks…..I’d be okay with that. I’m a very miserable person physically and I really don’t have much left in me. Nor do I want to stay in the hospital for another month. I don’t sleep, I can’t really take care of myself. And I think the babies would be fine. That’s what all the doctors are telling me anyway. That said, it’s a selfish thought and if I can hold on to 34 weeks I know that would be a great milestone too. I’d rather be in the hospital a month than the babies.

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8 thoughts on “32 weeks and in the hospital….

  1. Sunny says:

    I am so sorry to hear you’re going through all this, but you are absolutely right: the hospital is the best place to be until they are born. I am in awe at how strong you are! Every day they cook helps, but you also count in this equation– The babes will do great, even if they come tomorrow!

  2. robin says:

    What a crazy rollercoaster experience! I felt the same way at 34 weeks, that if the babies came right now I would be fine with it, even though I felt really guilty about those feelings. I was done being pregnant and ready – ready for what, I don’t know, but I felt like it was time and I was done. (That was days before they actually were born) If your babies are born soon, I wish you a safe delivery and healthy babies. I hope that if they are in the NICU they will come home sooner than expected, happy and healthy, and that you will get to bond with them as much as you can. ❤

  3. Deena Woodward says:

    I know you’re in a lot of pain at the moment, but when you’re feeling up to it could you send me the link to your new blog? I would love to be able to keep following your experience after the babies are born. Thanks and wishing you all the best!

    On Wed, Jun 26, 2013 at 4:43 PM, Pregnancy 101

  4. thefamilyvan says:

    Good luck, my friend! What a crazy story…I shared it over dinner!

    Crossing everything for you that things go smoothly from this point on. Can’t wait to hear about those sweet wee babes!

  5. perryay says:

    Wow – you must be exhausted. You’re doing the very best you can for your babies. I wish you lots of luck and less pain. After going through something similar but having to deliver at 28 weeks due to uterine rupture, I can only say that I wish I was still pregnant. But now that your babies have had 32+ weeks in utero, their health outcomes are likely to be similar to that of full-term babies. So you’ve done very well.

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