Good Little Blogger

Happy Leap Day and Hump Day, everyone. In CT, we’re celebrating it (the leap part, that is) with a snowstorm. While we’re not expecting much by way of accumulation, we did get an early release from school, which allows me to have the time today to write a blog post.

As usual, my thoughts are all over the place.

1) Our school system gave us a “half day” early release. I would just like to say that getting out 1 and a half hours earlier than normal is not a half day. I’m glad to get home earlier, but a real half day would be great. The kids were all excited about the snow and very hyper.

2) I have a big blogging question for you all to answer. Okay, so when I try to attract more people to my blog, I do the proper thing and go out and find other new blogs myself, comment on them, and sign up for their blogs. My hope is always that after signing up and commenting, the person’s blog I’m looking at will do the same by coming over to check my blog out, comment, and sign up. Here’s the problem: I have done this so many times (which has been a huge help to my blog) that I’m now reading over 30 blogs. I’m caught up in everyone’s IF stories, successes, and heartbreaks, and I look forward to reading new posts. However, on a daily basis I have at least 10 emails of people’s posts to read, plus, through the RSS feeder app on my phone, at least another 15 or so posts. A day. I usually try to read as much as I can, and comment on it all, but I’m never completely successful.

I want to be a good little blogger, and meet new people, follow their journeys, and write comments. However, with all the blogs I am signing up to read – I really don’t have time! I like the traffic on my blog. Though it really shouldn’t be about that, and I do write for myself, I like the audience, and I think having one makes me a better writer. So what do I do?

How do you all handle this with your large followings? Did you sign up for everyone’s blog that signed up for yours? I certainly don’t want to be insulting. But I can’t keep doing this, or I will never have time for anything!

3) CD 14 (or 35, if you’re keeping track). We need to keep practicing, and we’re a bit overdue. I know you’re supposed to keep the supply shelves stocked (ha) regularly anyways, but when ovulation seems so far away/never happening, it’s hard to keep up the regularity. That said, my CM has finally gone colorless (sorry for the TMI), and it never really did that last time when I didn’t ovulate, so I’d say I might be getting closer. I keep punching myself in the ovaries to see if it hurts a lot, like it did the only other time I’ve ovulated, and nope, they don’t hurt. Damn. I’m kidding, by the way. But I do lean up against the counter to see if it hurts…because last time I felt a super sharp pain when I leaned up against a counter. OPK’s still suck, and still that second line is lighter than the control line. My temps have been all over the place the last few days, confusing me and sending me into a mild panic, but no, I still don’t think I’ve ovulated yet.

I’ve said this before, and I’ll say it again – I would take the TWW over this crap any day. Waiting to ovulate is torture, because it may just never happen! Waiting for a period – well, at least I can say I tried, I charted, I know what my body is doing, and it’s out of my hands. I don’t feel that way now.

4) I’m hot. No, not that kind, but thank you anyway! Knock on wood, I have had basically no side effects from Clomid. However, after doubling my dosage, I have noticed one actual side effect. Hot flashes. They are almost comical. All week, at school, I’ve gotten so extremely hot all of a sudden, and I open the window, and the kids are freezing! Sorry, kids. Today I was wearing a scarf during the day, and all of a sudden I was dying. Had to take the scarf off and open a window, in the middle of a snowstorm. The thing is – I have also had hot flashes when my thyroid is all out of whack, and my TSH jumps. Those hot flashes leave me literally soaking wet in the middle of the night, nightclothes clinging to me for dear life. Those hot flashes require showers, and then blankets, and force me to check my temperature to make sure I’m not dying of the plague or something. Those hot flashes suck.

These Clomid hot flashes do not suck. The only thing that sucks is that I get hot, often. Maybe 5-7 times a day. But I don’t actually sweat. I just get super flushed. An open window, or throwing back the sheets, does the job. Also, these Clomid hot flashes are short. They last maybe 5 minutes, and then I’m back to normal. It’s really not bad at all, and I don’t even mind it. But it’s funny, how often my students are hearing me say how hot I am during a single day. Is this what menopause is like?

5) Snooki. You know what, screw her. Well, someone actually decided to do just that (Gionni?). I hate Jersey Shore, for the record, and I hate Snooki. And you know what I really, really hate? I hate that she’s pregnant. Yep, knocked up. Because the one thing the world really needs is a mini-Snooki. Seriously, she can get pregnant, and I can’t? Seriously?!

Oh, and Jennifer Garner popped, giving birth to baby #3, Samuel. Uma Thurman is pregnant, as well. Jessica Simpson is due any day now. Anyone else?! Come on, I can take it. So I get home today, flip on the TV, and there’s this afternoon news show on, where a nutritionist is showing off foods that pregnant people should eat. REALLY? I took notes, just for when it’s finally my turn. Kidding.

6) That’s about all I’ve got for today. Talk about random thoughts. But I do have one more thing to say: I love blogging. I’ve said that since the beginning but over the course of time, my reasons for loving it have evolved. In the last 2 weeks or so, I’ve suddenly felt like I know you guys out there! I follow your stories and your ups and downs, and I feel like I really know you. I even share your stories with my husband. When you comment, I know who you are, I know your story. I guess what I’m saying is, in the last few weeks, I don’t feel like we’re strangers any more. We’re all on the same page. That, above all else, might be my favorite reason to blog.

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Monday Mind Dump, the third.

It’s Monday again..you know what that means. Time to dump out my thoughts – random or otherwise.

1) I love how I can blog from my phone. I mean, it’s more of a pain, for sure, but I was just sitting here, being a slug on the couch, and decided to blog. All I had to do was pick up my phone. Of course, part of the problem is that I can’t get up, as Sadie is draped across my feet. This leads me to my second mind dump.

2) We’ve had a doggy injury! Yesterday, the husband was throwing a ball around the backyard with Riley, and as she was running, she obviously stepped on something sharp. My tough little rescue dog didn’t cry at all, but she picked up her front paw and hobbled to my husband, who scooped her up. He called out to me to grab paper towels, because she was dripping blood from her poor paw, all over our deck. It bled for a little while, and of course she kept licking it. We decided she probably cut her pad a little bit, and when the bleeding stopped, we waited it out. Plus, we would have to drive a while for a vet open on Sunday afternoons.

Anyway, to make a long story short, it wasn’t her pad, it was her outside nail. Something got between it and her pad, hence the blood. As Riley licked it all night, it started to come loose. We got her into the vet first thing this morning, and by then it was barely on – turned sideways, sticking out. Luckily, the vet did not have to put her under, which would’ve cost us hundreds. They did, however, take the nail off. She’s now licking it again, and it could be sore for 6 weeks, they said. She’s down a nail. Poor puppy. All I know is that she was the first thing I thought of when I woke up this morning, and I had to get up and make sure she was okay! My babies before babies.

3) Happy thoughts, Day 3. It’s going to work, I’m telling you. Well, I’m telling myself. I got these cheap OPK’s, the old-fashioned kind, because the digital ones were getting too expensive. Sure hope they work just as good! The only problem is they require the test stick to lay flat, not moved, for 4 minutes. How can I do that at work? I can’t always hold it until I get home. Yikes.

4) We have started the “games” today. I’m going all out here, people! His count is good, let’s do this! (Talk to me again in 12 days.) Hey, maybe I’ll ovulate earlier than CD 24 this time, that would be nice.

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Simplifying/organizing/de-cluttering: Help!

You guys are amazing! I’m still kind of in awe about this whole blogging thing – once you have established readers, they actually want to hear what you have to say and will comment on it. I mean, I get it, because I feel the same way about all the blogs I follow, but it’s so cool when it’s turned back to you! I did think this would happen eventually, but only for the topic of IF. Now that I feel more “established”, it’s clear that you’re not all going to stray when I write about something more random! That’s awesome. I always thought a successful blog has one topic in mind and that’s it. And I do, I guess. I mean I’ve basically only ever written about fertility, with some health/fitness stuff thrown in. But I do have other things on my mind. And during the TWW, they come front and center.

I will try not to dump these random thoughts on you more than once a week-ish. Fertility still comes first right now. However, it’ll give me the opportunity to blog more, which I would like to do.

Today’s non-IF thought actually ties with yesterday’s post: Simplifying/organizing/de-cluttering (my house, my life, etc.)

Here’s the question: When you go into a cleaning/organizing frenzy, and you want to start throwing away everything in sight, as well as rearranging furniture and generally changing it all up – is your husband on board?

I ask this for a reason. Yesterday, after my post, I kind of went into organizing mode. I straightened up a cabinet that was desperately overdue, and then I went to the bedroom. I hate our bedroom. It’s not at all a “master” bedroom. It’s small, with plastic drawers from college holding the clothes that don’t fit in the dresser. Our closet is tiny, so my husband’s shoes are all over the floor. (I’ve stolen both shoe racks..) It’s not cozy at all. My dogs sleep on the bed and there’s always fur on it, even when we constantly vacuum. I could go on and on. I started talking about how displeased I was with all of this. Now, my husband is displeased as well. In fact, he’s not too keen on the house in general, though it was the right deal when we bought it.

In his eyes, he doesn’t like so many things about the house, it’s not worth bothering to fix anything. In my eyes, we might as well fix the small things in the house we don’t like, since we can’t change the big things.

I made a comment about his nightstand in the bedroom – dusty, and covered with his crap (wallet, money, phone, and a million other little things). I told him I’d take care of it and clean it off so it looked better. His response was that he didn’t want to clean it up. “Otherwise,” he said, “where would I put my stuff?” Ahh! I know that he has never appreciated a clean house like I do, and he also hates to clean (it’s like pulling teeth). So I ended up spending a few hours in the bedroom yesterday afternoon cleaning up all of my stuff, but I left his alone. What good is a bedroom that’s half-clean? How do I convince him that organizing and de-cluttering feels so good?

Don’t get me wrong – my husband is amazing at so many things. He’s incredibly bright and knows every answer on Jeopardy, he’s a great cook who basically cooks every night for us, he’s hysterically funny, and very supportive of all this IF stuff. I can talk about it until I’m blue in the face, and he doesn’t mind. One thing he’s not good at – cleaning. And organizing. We can’t all be good at everything, I guess. But still.

How do you get your significant other to clean/organize/de-clutter??

 

Oh, and one more little question out there for the blogging world: What is ICLW? And how does it work? I saw that it was this week…

Thanks for reading, everyone! 🙂

6 DPO…

…and I’m doing okay! After last Monday, when I didn’t have work but my husband did and I spent all day obsessing over Google, I stopped that quickly the next day. In fact, I haven’t used Google for pregnancy-related things all week. Work keeps me busy. Now that the weekend is here again, I’ve got a few things on my mind. I figured I’d pick your brains about them.

1) This past week and the next one don’t have much going on with me in fertility-land. There’s really nothing new to tell. Yet, I love to blog, and I think about posting often. I’m just not sure what to say. This leads me to a question:

What do I really want from my blog?  Well, since the day I created it last summer, I really wanted it to be a place to house various information about getting pregnant and being pregnant. I wanted it to eventually become a place where people could click on a category to learn information to help themselves. I had always found all the information I wanted in a thousand different places, and I thought this would be helpful. Here’s the problem: I don’t know anything about pregnancy, obviously, and I am clearly not the expert on any topic enough to be the holder of all that information. Plus, as TTC turned out to be a giant project, I ended up needing to vent and went looking for support, which I found. It was very helpful, and I still want that from my blog. But I also want more from it. I just have no idea what exactly to do, and how to do it.

I mean, there are other areas of my life in which I have information to share – recipes for gluten-free foods, exercise tips, thyroid-issues, great books I’ve read, life with two rescue dogs, teacher stories. Everyone has other interests. Do you ever want to blog about those things? And if I started doing that here, wouldn’t that kind of change the tone of this whole blog – perhaps making other people less likely to read it? Have these thoughts crossed any of your minds?

I know a lot of you have these posts based on certain days of the week (Thankful Thursday, for example). I like those! What are the different topics you use?

A lot of people have very successful blogs. I do want to have a blog that really gets out there. I’m just not sure what I want IN my blog – I want to keep what I have, but sometimes I think I need to have more to talk about. I’d like to have more to talk about.

2) I have a small house. I just spent a little while checking out pinterest (my first time) and there are such beautiful and creative house projects that can be done. I especially like all the ways you can use old window frames, or pieces of wood. I love that old-fashioned look. Here’s the thing – my house is a small cape. It’s filled with stuff. I don’t have much wall space. There is no room for all of the cool things I saw on that site. And this weekend I’m in the mood for a DIY cool project for my house. But they all require a lot of space.

So, if you have a smaller home with little to no wall space, or extra closets, or large bathrooms, what little crafty/organizational project have you done that was totally worth it?

3) You know what all of this is – this is my mind trying to forget about the TWW. I’m bored, mentally. How many times can I look at my Fertility Friend chart, after all? 6 DPO. I plan to test a week from tomorrow. Yippee!

Thank you!

This is why I love blogging. Sure, I do basically nothing besides talk about myself, but what is so nice is that there people out there reading it! And commenting!

I’ve been in a funk, and the last two days I’ve felt a little better; a little more like myself. After yesterday’s whiny post, I got so many nice comments from people that I do not know personally – but I feel like I do. And that’s awesome. It’s a really cool feeling. And it’s the first time I’ve understood that level of support since starting my blog last July. I get it now, and I’ll make sure to reciprocate that feeling.

What’s also so great about blogging is finding more people just like you. I’ve found people my age, people on Clomid, people with Hashimoto’s disease, people TTC for a year or more, people who have been through it all. Everyone has a story, and I love to hear about other people’s. I still am a newbie; there are so many blogs out there I haven’t found yet. I was excited to get 1,000 hits on mine recently. But how cool.

So, thank you everyone, for the support. I tend to tell myself I don’t need any help from anybody, but once in a while, it’s just nice to hear that people understand and get it. 🙂

Positive thoughts today: I’m very appreciative of my blog readers, and tomorrow’s Friday.